You cannot control the length of your life, only the depth...

Boo! I missed my birthday blog post. I turned 3 years old on April 15th, 2009. It sucks that it is on Tax Day because I'm always so busy and everyone else is otherwise engaged. I don't even think my DBF remembered it was my birthday. He hasn't said anything and it's been over a week. I'm gonna guess it slipped his mind.

April 15th, 2006 is the most important day of my life. It is the day I was given a second chance. Not very many people ever get that chance so I want to make sure I never forget. The story behind what happened isn't really what matters, the outcome of the situation is. The outcome is that the Universe, God, Gods, Mother, whomever, decided it wasn't my time to leave this earth and pushed me back to life after a tragic motorcycle accident. I say pushed because that is exactly what he/she/they did! Pushed me back all the time I was begging to stay.

I think about that accident almost every day. I remember exactly what happened leading up to the crash, and I remember where I went when I was "dead". I mostly recall how bad it hurt to be alive. Some will argue there is no after life. I'm here to tell you there most certainly is. It is a place I NEVER wanted to leave. I'm not sure if it's the same for everyone, however, for me, it was perfect love, pain free, and beautiful. It was everything I long for in this life and MORE! The ironic thing is, as much as I protested being sent back to my broken body, once I was conscious I realized what a true miracle it was! OMG! I got a second chance. I was dead and now I'm alive!

Let me say Happy Birthday to me since no one else did. I won't ever forget that this life is precious. You never know if you're going to see tomorrow, so please make today count. Please just DO IT. I know it's cliche, but I am going to say it over and over again. Live today like it's your last. You just never know if it will be. Make sure everyone you love knows how much you love them. Hug your family, your friends, your mentors, your boss, your mailman! Heck, hug the grocery girl at the check out counter. Smile BIG and don't fret the small stuff. Be BIG! Be BRAVE! Make a list of everyone and everything you are grateful for and let them know! Live, love, laugh, share and pay it forward!

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I love Demos, Marla, My mom, Jenna, Shelby, The FlyBabies, great friends who love me in spite of me, peanut butter, sunshine, sharpies, bracelets, silver jewelry, tattoos, twitter,BTR, Photoshop, lipgloss, penny-arcade, music, black fingernail polish, fishing, the full moon, rock band, pedicures and giggles.

It only took me 6 days to write this first post

This blog is supposed to be about how focus makes me fabulous. The ironic thing is it has taken me 6 days to write. I actually have to LOL when I think about it. I've had this tab open in my browser for 6 days trying to complete it. Don't get me wrong, it's not because I procrastinated or because I didn't want to write it. It's simply because I am in a cycle of 3 steps forward 2 steps back. I know y'all understand that cycle. I sat down several times to complete it and something else more important came up. I have deadlines for work, family to attend too, a DBF who needs a kiss now and then. I really don't mean to neglect being fabulous, it's just sometimes other things get in the way.

I actually asked a very good friend to remind me to post this blog and I haven't heard back from her since the day I asked. That was Thursday afternoon. I bet she had as many things come up as I did. In fact, I feel very guilty for even suggesting she remind me because like me, she is a SHE. All my best plans seem to fail. The GOOD thing is, no matter how long this post ends up being, I am hitting submit on this darn blog post. At least then I can cross "Post Focus makes me Fabulous Blog" off my list.

Speaking of lists, did you know that lists can be a cause of great stress? I actually find them quite helpful when they are completed, and quite disturbing when they stare me in the face un crossed off. I'm not the type of person who enjoys seeing what I HAVE NOT completed. I know it might motivate people to see a list of 10 things that need to be done, however, for me, it only intimidates me and causes me anxiety. If it weren't for FlyLady and her loving advice I know I wouldn't be where I am today. Hmm...where am I today? Oh yes, I'm writing a blog about how focusing on the task at hand helps you be fabulous. See, even as I'm trying to focus I digress...

Basically, in a nutshell, what this blog will be is a peek into my daily life. If I can write everyday that is. A peek at how The FlyLady system (including Kelly, Leanne, Leslie, Pam, Jonathan, Tamara, and Kim) have all helped me realize that I am not alone and that my struggle truly is theirs. When you hear Marla say fluttering is flying she really means it. When Jonathan tells us there is NO Excuse, he truly lives it, and when Leanne promises meal planning will help us save money and have more time to play, SHE is right.

Listen here y'all, I am just one little example of how these people have changed my life. I don't pretend to know anything about anything except this...Focus really does make you fabulous. Routines rock, and when you finally love yourself you have the ability to give back.

I guess that's all I have to say tonight. I thank the Fly Family for all they have taught me, and especially Marla for loving me in spite of myself.

Live, love, laugh, share and pay it forward!

xoxo
Nikki