No Regrets...

My mentor, mama and friend Marla Cilley - The FlyLady - told me recently that there is NO need for regret. I have been thinking about what she said a lot recently. We were having our normal and wonderful discussion one night and I was telling her that there were several things in my past I wish I could change. Decisions I made, people I hurt, path's that I took etc. I'm sure y'all understand. In her beautiful and gracious way she said the most profound thing to me... she said, "Nikki, you wouldn't be where you are right now if everything in your past hadn't happened."

I don't know why, I don't know how, and I can't even get my head around the reason, but I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Right now, this time in my life is an incredible journey towards my purpose. I was dead and now I am alive. Literally and figuratively, I am at complete peace with this soul my body houses. I vow, every morning, to live, love, laugh, share, and pay it forward.

Right quick I want to share with you a lesson I recently learned. I learn many everyday, just in case you were wondering if I knew everything. I do not. My God chooses to teach me often. I am forever grateful. Just when I think I have a clue, He reminds me I have none :)

I recently moved to Heaven on Earth. I am fortunate enough to have found a home in the Forest of North Carolina. When I tell you the tree's sing to me and the wind eases my soul I am not lying. It is truly my dream come true. Not only am I living in the most beautiful Narnia/Fairy scenery, I am surrounded by people who GET me. If you have ever NOT been around people who get you, you will understand just how important this is. Anyway, this love is all new to me. My first experience with any real love was with the Marla and the FlyBabies. The FlyBabies understand me like no one ever has. They feel my pain, they cry when I cry, they rejoice when I do. They have restored my faith in friendship. Well, my nephew texted me soon after the move and asked if I was happy, to which I promptly replied, "Yes, for some reason these people like me and think I am valuable. They genuinely love me." His simple reply? "DUH!"

I understand more now, than ever, that our own perception of ourselves is entirely different than others perception of us. There isn't a FlyBaby I know who I don't respect, admire, love, and cherish. I am privileged to know each and every one of you, and I hope I give back as much as I have received. Please love you as much as I LOVE YOU!

That's all I have to say tonight. I hope to see many of you in Kentucky soon! Thank you for teaching me the value of me, and thank you for loving me in spite of me. Please accept my love back.

xoxo
Nikki